i've never wanted to be an astronaut.

people think being one is cool. i think so too. but i cannot be cool professionally (only personally!), so i had to find cooler things like sheriff domestic, dogecoin, or rationalising the irrational by multiplying the denominator by its conjugate to keep myself busy.

brains go on lengths rationalising actions they will have to help perform, adjusting the boundaries of morality to accommodate things that shall follow.

i miss the days when 1/√2 → √2/2 was just one multiplication away, when the only acceptable answer to "who are you?" was {firstname} {lastname}, when my teachers annoyed me simply by not tending to my questions.

just kidding, i don't. now is better. now was worth it. now is forever.

i am never going to be an astronaut. i never dreamt of being one. i like watching stars from afar and writing cool words about them.

i am alive,
and isn't the awareness of the awareness
the coolest part of it all?